new xanga .. liljennjae ... add me to ur list .. i prOmise the last one!!

im sitting here in complete silence thinking about the past. i know your never supossed to reminise on the past and always look towards the future but sometimes i like to sit and think on how much i've grown.. rather its in mind, body, soul, knowledge or whatever the case may be. i've been through alot these last couple of years and I think its all for the better if yanno what i mean. I been through my up's, down's, friendships, maturing more in my self and gaining knowledge I will use for the rest of my life. i've lost some friends or I'll just say some scandalous ass bitches due to them being fake. kelly has kept it real with me and been there for me at my toughest times. so far away but I feel as if she is so close. Have you ever felt like someone you read over a screen or hear can put you in a happy mindset when your down and out? Thats how she makes me.I love her to death and thats someone I would actually consider a TRUE FRIEND.Not many of them around these days.People cant keep it real with reality so therefore reality wont keep it real with them.Someone once asked me how can i believe anything someone tells me over this, and how can they make me better.Well reguardless if someone lies to me or dont keep it real its helped me out. rather it be for good or for bad yanno?I've ran into some fake people on the i-net but thats just life. get over it.the net is my escape from my bullshit ass life I have right now. Im workin on gettin my shit together and i have people who support me 100% +. I love them for that. my homie jake tries to help me as much as he can and I love that boy more then anything. coo as hell and so silly lol. I put him on hold to type this blog as well as kelly . i think I just need a vacation. time to my self. imma travel pretty soon and get out. See the world. have a couple days all to my self and not worry about nothing.See where I wanna go in life. i got goals and Im setting them, now its up to me to where Im going to take them. so to everyone thats kept it real with me, thanks.To all the haters thanks for believing in me because if you didnt you wouldnt waste your time right =]?Thanks to the ones who have gave me courage and strength to move on. Its very much appreciated.

just got home from school, long and boring day, i didnt like today because my pants were all baggy and they were suppose to be tight and ugh ..i just wanted to come home to change my clothing lol.. [ loOk how girly i am hehe ] .. well today so much shit happened .. i duno whats goin on wit our school but all these peoples gettin expelled for drugs n shit .. 4 kids got expelled because they were passing around drugs, and they were told twice to stop buh they never did, and one of the kids was an exchange student from germany [ uh o! ] he said he didnt kno that they were illegal here and bla bla i feel bad for the kid, because he was so f'n nice.. damn i dont even wanna know the troubles he's gettin in .. heh .. another thing, jeff allis who's my friend hates his cuzin andy so much [ andy iz hot as hell ] but anyway jeff & his friends were gonna give andy a drive by as in .. shining flood lights in the windows, doing burnout marks all over his driveway, and steal all this shit and all this stupid shit that they thought was so cool, well sooner or later it got around to the police so they were all at our school questioning everyone, and i'm all like i aint gettin in that shit, well today during 4th period andy decided to cut outta school and he went on the P.A. system thro out the school and said " im sick of this FUCKING school, ya'll better get out soon, or there gonna kick you out anyways" n it was jus funny as hell, i feel bad for the kid, but whatever, his choice!

well tonight i don't know what i'm gonna do, probably chill around home, my brother has a few friends over, and there going to see a movie and i duno if i wanna go with them or not, dependz on how i b treated around them if they mean to me er not and usually they are, so i probably wont go, well im out now, leab dem props n comments ..muahz..1

 got sOmebOdy he`s a beauty ..very special really and truly
   take good care of me like it's his duty
   want you right by my side night and day
  no lettting go no holding back
   because you are my man
   when I'm with you its all a that 
   bOy I, am so glad we've dated
   no letting go no holding back
   no holding Back no
   when I'm with you it's all a that
   All a that
   they say good things must come to an end
   but I'm optimistic about being your friend
   though i made you cry by my doings
   with Keisha and Annesha but that
   Was back then

* heh .. n tOo whO ever wrOte that comment that i deleted .. that said that i stOle the name "mizz jae" yuuhh rahh! u just knOw everything lmaO .. and ur tellin me tO watch my back, heh, get a life, can't even say who u are, gotta make a xanga jus to tell me whats up, now thats love lol .. phuck u n getta life, and i can act as "gangsta n sheit" as i want .. *

yerr loOk at lOw-g ..ugh he sOo cute! loOlz .. girLz hit him uP On "oh boy its doy" cuz he quit his xanga  which waz www.xanga.com/lowg

uqhh .. cOnferences tOniqht

after dat i qOt church & i didn`t dO my church hOmewOrk & i dunOosz, prObably qet my One warnin` kick Out loOlz .. Oo weLL like i care! ha .. anyways On a happier nOte ..

happy birthday caitlin  

weLL .. thnxz fOr the prOps ya`ll .. much luBb tO yOu ;] .. weLL i`m Out fOr tOday, Only 5 mOre days Of premium damnit! oO weLLz, muahz..1

i wanna say hi tOo aLL my xanga peoples .. chris, chris, jae, jeska, kelly, lowg, efrom, elle, verOnica, jOeL, diaNa, blancO, karen, wiLL, mike, tashie, jenni

and many mOre Of ya`LL .. much lOve tO yOu!!

______________________________fun timez____________________________

heh aLL thOse were wOn at six flags .. n thats Only the drives seat ;x

aww dan & jenny, friendly cOuple/ friendly hug <3 muahz

heh .. i dun even kno wha they are doin ;P

oOfz .. snOw bOarderSz.. they suck thO!!! ;x

trisha wDf .. "chOcOlate cOvered diLdO" lmaoo

erRfz .. itz a peice Of ass ;x

the piGgy`s that wenT tO mcdOnalds .. i didn`t get any thO ;[

the cOp .. she tryna b coOl

hey whats up ya'll? i aint gonna leave xanga, i duno if ima keep this xanga though, i might make a new one, but probably not because i'm just to lazy, and in a way i dOnt care if i lOse premium anymOre .. i hate it at my hOme, i'm gettin yelled at by my mOms and pOps all da time .. i aint like it here, i wanna mOve, i hate my life, its aLL shitty and my repOrt carD waz .. CCDDFF .. and i dOn`t even care, i admit this semester i didn`t try as hard as a cOuld have, but next semester i'm gonna do good, & my parents better be fxckin` happy .. and alsO my pOps iz trying tO tell me i dress like a sLut by wearing hiphuqqers .. and i'm all like "fxck yOu" its in style .. i dOn`t care anymore what people have to say about me, i am who i am, and aint nobody gonna change it .. im gonna act how i act and i aint gonna try to be "mature" or "immature" im just gonna be myself and go through life like that .. if you dont like it the dont be my friend anymore, i'm kinda sick and tired of people loOkin at me stupid and tryin` tO make something Out Of me that i ain`t .. i wanna be whO i really am, and nOt try tO act like someone i aint .. and aLso my parents are puttin` sOo much stress on me that i'm smOking weed again!!! ;[ .. i know i dont loOk like the girl that wOuld do that shit, but yes i dO, sadly and i dOnt even care one bit .. its all stress .. and i'm stiLL the same persOn and if you dont like me anymore because of what i do, then dont be my friend because i dont care, i am who i am and im always gonna be this way ;] .. take it or leave it ..

anOther thing that yall gonna be mad at me bout [ chris, chris, jess, kelly and others ] i duno if ima be going december 14 now, my dad needs to stay longer for some shit, but hes talkin` bout jus sendin me and my moms out there for awhile [ nyc ] but i dont even know yet, my dad says if i can't pass this semester i can't go, and i duno anymore, i dont really care honestly, because i have so much stress on me, i feel shitty, and just dont care about anything! well i'm gonna go for the night and i'll probably write some more tomarow night, some shit thats happier then what i wrote tonight, but i am just depressed i guess, well thanx for the peoples who stop by my site and actually take the time to read my boring entry's ;] and take the time to leave a nice comment and some props, muahz to you, and take care and i'll be stoppin in and out of ur site as days go by! .. and also i'ma keep this o-town song on for awhile, and if anyone who knows these lyrics " maybe ur just like my motha, shes neva satisfied " and who sings that song, please tell me, i want that song on my page!! well i'm out, take care, 1 love

tOday wazn`t a qOod day at aLL .. tOday i wOke up .. mah stOmach hurt like a bitch i didn`t want tO qO tOo schOol buh we have testin the first 3 hOurs & its sOo fxckin` qay .. i waz qOnna qO hOme after 4th hOur buh then peOple were lyk nOo yOu have tO stay fOr gym fOr sOccer n bla bla .. sOo i jus stayed in schOol with pain  i quess i stiLL have tha fLu a lil bit .. but whateva its all qOod .. nOt my fauLt i quess ..

weLL i`m havin` this prOblem with One Of my friends parents .. she hateZ me sOo much cuz when i waz a freshman One Of mah friends asked me tOo fOrge her ma`s siqnature & sOo i did [ nOt thinkin` ] `nd nOw she hates me sOo much fer dOin` that .. & in a way i dOn`t blame her, buh it wazn`t aLL my fauLt .. it waz part keri`s fauLt tOo .. n ever since then shes been teLLin` sOme Of my friends mOthers that i`m suCh a bad infLuence & that they shOuldn`t aLLow there kids tOo hanq Out with me .. n she tOld my friend Vanessa`s mOm dat .. & i just abOut had enuff Of her buLLshit i ain`t qOnna take dis anymOre ..i ain`t a fxckin` bad kid .. and i ain`t a fxckin` bad infLuence On anyOne .. jus b`cuz i fOrqed sOmeOnes siqnature dOesn`t make me a bad fxckin` persOn .. uqh dis shit iz reaLLy gettin` tOo me, but whateva .. i'ma caLL her up and teLL her what i think bOut dis situatiOn

anOther thing i dOn`t knOW Of, iz ever since i waz like 1O i`ve wanTed my tOnque peirced .. and i stiLL kinda dO, and nOw my mOm iz wiLLinq tO let me dO it .. buh i dunO .. gimme sOme OpiniOns ON wha yOu think abOut that pLease!! weLL thats basicaLLy it .. i`ll write tOmarOw ..  1 luBb

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